hi i am back (:
i wonder who still reads this.
ive lost my mojo to blog.
but prac is over, so i thought i should just drop a note over here.
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be right back.
real soon.
Sunday, May 09, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
YOU.
At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world. Some are running scared. Some are coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day. Others are just now facing the truth. Some are evil men, that war with good. And some are good, struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the world. 6 billion souls. And sometimes, all you need is one.
Peyton Sawyer (One Tree Hill)
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and all i need is you.
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ohnooo.
i know i promised to blog but i didnt.
but time's really not on my side anymore.
it'd be a miracle if i even managed to survive through this week.
*cross fingers.
be back soon!
Peyton Sawyer (One Tree Hill)
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and all i need is you.
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ohnooo.
i know i promised to blog but i didnt.
but time's really not on my side anymore.
it'd be a miracle if i even managed to survive through this week.
*cross fingers.
be back soon!
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
a week since i last posted!
ive had an awesome week.
make that awesome x 19427248 week.
(((:
totally enjoying life despite my days being heavily scheduled, and falling way behind work.
so much to update, and ive already forgotten all that i wanted to say initially.
will write a proper post tomorrow!
hope you are all feeing awesome too (:
ive had an awesome week.
make that awesome x 19427248 week.
(((:
totally enjoying life despite my days being heavily scheduled, and falling way behind work.
so much to update, and ive already forgotten all that i wanted to say initially.
will write a proper post tomorrow!
hope you are all feeing awesome too (:
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Just Believe.
seen and experienced alot within a span of a couple of days.
there were the positive ones, and then there were the really negative ones.
it's amazing how a single event, being observed by different individuals, would yield different results and perspectives.
glaring differences.
while talking about areas of improvements, i believe that there is a limit to how one should nitpick and the usage of strong languages should be avoided whenever possible. encouragements and helpful suggestions will result in the will to improve. nitpicking, accusations and ridiculous remarks will result in setbacks and fears.
this is something i should always remember whether i am a teacher or not.
learn from the mistakes of others. hmm.
to say that i'm no longer affected would be lying.
i am.
i am terribly affected because it pierced right through my heart and scarred me.
i got afraid, i lost all confidence, and was real depressed.
for a brief moment,
i felt like i should be giving my career path some thoughts again.
but while there are devils, there will always be angels around as well.
and angels came in the form of ... them.
i am thankful for the trust they have placed in me, and for the positive feedbacks i've been given since Day 1.
they lifted my spirits, as well as my level of confidence.
it was necessary.
the chapter is still open.
and while i am at it, i'll just remind myself to thread carefully, and be mindful of not making the same mistakes.
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here's something more positive to offset the negativity up there.
you should have seen it on twitter/fb somehow,
that yesterday i finally witnessed my P2 boy, who is autistic, speaking to me in a complete sentence. not once! but twice! (:
to say that i was happy would be an understatement.
i was overjoyed. i was touched. and i sensed hope.
on day 1, i found out that he's mildly autistic, and i'd say... a lil of OCD.
but he's cute! with longggg lashes that i am real envious of.
during the first week, i tried walking past him and speaking to him.
i was ignored.
on the second week, i tried again.
this time round, i squatted next to him and spoke to him.
i got nods. well, at least, there were acknowledgements.
at the beginning of this week, i started teaching the class officially.
once again, i tried.
i interacted intentionally, i asked if he needed help with the copying.
to make sure that he understood what i was saying, i took his pencil, and asked again.
this time, i was awarded with mumblings of a few words.
i smiled (:
yesterday,
i tried my luck again.
during lesson, i was letting them copy down notes.
i saw that he was not copying anything. so i asked if he needed help again.
and that was when i heard the sweetest words, "you freeze (the projector), then lend me the book."
i wanted to cry, because it sounded absolutely melodious.
that was once.
class has ended, and there were only a couple of boys left in the classroom.
he was packing, well, the last to leave as usual.
so i asked questions again, and asked if he will be picked up by someone after school.
then i heard it again. "i am taking the schoolbus."
just 5 words! but it meant a whole lot to me.
and that, was the 2nd time.
you know what?
i think miracles do happen,
when you believe, hope, and have the determination to make it happen.
being patient really pays.
and because of this,
there is absolutely no need to rethink my career path as of now.
i want to teach.
certainly.
there were the positive ones, and then there were the really negative ones.
it's amazing how a single event, being observed by different individuals, would yield different results and perspectives.
glaring differences.
while talking about areas of improvements, i believe that there is a limit to how one should nitpick and the usage of strong languages should be avoided whenever possible. encouragements and helpful suggestions will result in the will to improve. nitpicking, accusations and ridiculous remarks will result in setbacks and fears.
this is something i should always remember whether i am a teacher or not.
learn from the mistakes of others. hmm.
to say that i'm no longer affected would be lying.
i am.
i am terribly affected because it pierced right through my heart and scarred me.
i got afraid, i lost all confidence, and was real depressed.
for a brief moment,
i felt like i should be giving my career path some thoughts again.
but while there are devils, there will always be angels around as well.
and angels came in the form of ... them.
i am thankful for the trust they have placed in me, and for the positive feedbacks i've been given since Day 1.
they lifted my spirits, as well as my level of confidence.
it was necessary.
the chapter is still open.
and while i am at it, i'll just remind myself to thread carefully, and be mindful of not making the same mistakes.
-
here's something more positive to offset the negativity up there.
you should have seen it on twitter/fb somehow,
that yesterday i finally witnessed my P2 boy, who is autistic, speaking to me in a complete sentence. not once! but twice! (:
to say that i was happy would be an understatement.
i was overjoyed. i was touched. and i sensed hope.
on day 1, i found out that he's mildly autistic, and i'd say... a lil of OCD.
but he's cute! with longggg lashes that i am real envious of.
during the first week, i tried walking past him and speaking to him.
i was ignored.
on the second week, i tried again.
this time round, i squatted next to him and spoke to him.
i got nods. well, at least, there were acknowledgements.
at the beginning of this week, i started teaching the class officially.
once again, i tried.
i interacted intentionally, i asked if he needed help with the copying.
to make sure that he understood what i was saying, i took his pencil, and asked again.
this time, i was awarded with mumblings of a few words.
i smiled (:
yesterday,
i tried my luck again.
during lesson, i was letting them copy down notes.
i saw that he was not copying anything. so i asked if he needed help again.
and that was when i heard the sweetest words, "you freeze (the projector), then lend me the book."
i wanted to cry, because it sounded absolutely melodious.
that was once.
class has ended, and there were only a couple of boys left in the classroom.
he was packing, well, the last to leave as usual.
so i asked questions again, and asked if he will be picked up by someone after school.
then i heard it again. "i am taking the schoolbus."
just 5 words! but it meant a whole lot to me.
and that, was the 2nd time.
you know what?
i think miracles do happen,
when you believe, hope, and have the determination to make it happen.
being patient really pays.
and because of this,
there is absolutely no need to rethink my career path as of now.
i want to teach.
certainly.
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
demoralising.
utterly depressing day.
but it'll past.
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人善，有时候真的会被人欺。
我的沉默，不等于我的认同。
但人因为被压在五指山下，的确不得已。
很沮丧，但我要越战越勇。
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as usual,
im thankful for these people who cheers me up in their very own ways.
but it'll past.
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人善，有时候真的会被人欺。
我的沉默，不等于我的认同。
但人因为被压在五指山下，的确不得已。
很沮丧，但我要越战越勇。
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as usual,
im thankful for these people who cheers me up in their very own ways.
Sunday, March 07, 2010
being unwell..
has made me realised that it could be both a good or terrible thing.
terrible because,
i really wanted to bang my head against something when the pain reaches its peak.
then i start wondering to myself why we need to have teeth and gums. and if only i could saw my jaws away.
my jawline, neck were all swollen. it wasnt a very good sight.
everynight, i have to go through this 2hours ordeal of tossing&turning about in bed before i finally fall asleep due to fatigue. only to be woken up again by the sharp pain when i accidentally shut my jaw too tightly.
every word spoken was so slurred and took so much effort.
being the slow eater that i already am, instead of a 30mins meal, i now take an hour.
the tuitions i have to cancelled, the classes i had to miss, the money i have to spend on lousy doctor.
it was torturous mentally and physically.
good because,
i get to have porridge for all 3 meals. (i loveeee porridge.)
wonderful family and friends who have been absolute darlings.
mum made porridge, liangtehs, and whatever that she thinks will be good for me.
and i even got liangteh delivery from a very nice person.
i enjoyed feeling pampered. heh.
even though sometimes they make a big fuss... like "go sleep already!" at 9pm and even "can go to the hospital or something?" :p kidding. i've got cute friends.
there are always 2 sides to a coin, no?
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getting better now.
the antibiotics and all that liangtehs etc helped.
i can feel the swell subsiding.
but the pain still creeps in every few hours...
and my speech is still slurred ._.
terrible because,
i really wanted to bang my head against something when the pain reaches its peak.
then i start wondering to myself why we need to have teeth and gums. and if only i could saw my jaws away.
my jawline, neck were all swollen. it wasnt a very good sight.
everynight, i have to go through this 2hours ordeal of tossing&turning about in bed before i finally fall asleep due to fatigue. only to be woken up again by the sharp pain when i accidentally shut my jaw too tightly.
every word spoken was so slurred and took so much effort.
being the slow eater that i already am, instead of a 30mins meal, i now take an hour.
the tuitions i have to cancelled, the classes i had to miss, the money i have to spend on lousy doctor.
it was torturous mentally and physically.
good because,
i get to have porridge for all 3 meals. (i loveeee porridge.)
wonderful family and friends who have been absolute darlings.
mum made porridge, liangtehs, and whatever that she thinks will be good for me.
and i even got liangteh delivery from a very nice person.
i enjoyed feeling pampered. heh.
even though sometimes they make a big fuss... like "go sleep already!" at 9pm and even "can go to the hospital or something?" :p kidding. i've got cute friends.
there are always 2 sides to a coin, no?
-
getting better now.
the antibiotics and all that liangtehs etc helped.
i can feel the swell subsiding.
but the pain still creeps in every few hours...
and my speech is still slurred ._.
Wednesday, March 03, 2010
just to let you know that i am still alive.
been a long time since my last "proper" post.
so much has happened, yet it felt like nothing has really happened.
you'd have prolly seen most of the photos on facebook anyway.
school's alright.
the P2s brighten up my day, and im glad i have them for the last few lessons everyday (:
(there's this boy who turns around and smile at me all the time when i sit in the class. and one day, he just started prancing around me. very cute.)
the P5s are really quite adorable, but they irk me endlessly with the noise they make at times.
not to forget, the nice people to look at in school too (:
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so much to do,
and with the 3 tutees who are taking up 4days of my week,
im just glad that im at least coping.
beyond my own imagination, but i believe perseverance and passion will keep me going.
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all would be rather awesome now,
if not for my swollen gums.
the right of my cheek feels and look totally swollen.
i havent been eating, i swallow :/
unable to shut my jaws fully either because it's mad painful when i do so.
it's been 2 days!
the 2 periods spent in my P5class today felt like eternity. my speech was so slurred, it took so much effort from me just to speak loudly and clearly.
plans for pulling out that wisdom tooth is in order.
i was made to gulp down 2 bottles of liangteh today. but it doesnt really seem to be helping much.
and im so whiney today. but really painful whattt :p
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but issssssokay!
i'll survive somehow (:
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k bed time.
bye dears.
so much has happened, yet it felt like nothing has really happened.
you'd have prolly seen most of the photos on facebook anyway.
school's alright.
the P2s brighten up my day, and im glad i have them for the last few lessons everyday (:
(there's this boy who turns around and smile at me all the time when i sit in the class. and one day, he just started prancing around me. very cute.)
the P5s are really quite adorable, but they irk me endlessly with the noise they make at times.
not to forget, the nice people to look at in school too (:
-
so much to do,
and with the 3 tutees who are taking up 4days of my week,
im just glad that im at least coping.
beyond my own imagination, but i believe perseverance and passion will keep me going.
-
all would be rather awesome now,
if not for my swollen gums.
the right of my cheek feels and look totally swollen.
i havent been eating, i swallow :/
unable to shut my jaws fully either because it's mad painful when i do so.
it's been 2 days!
the 2 periods spent in my P5class today felt like eternity. my speech was so slurred, it took so much effort from me just to speak loudly and clearly.
plans for pulling out that wisdom tooth is in order.
i was made to gulp down 2 bottles of liangteh today. but it doesnt really seem to be helping much.
and im so whiney today. but really painful whattt :p
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but issssssokay!
i'll survive somehow (:
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k bed time.
bye dears.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Week 1 Day 2
i think ive found my motivation to wake up at ungodly hour everyday for school.
((((:
teehee.
(shishi! the boys are not the only cute ones!)
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school's so good, so far.
nothing much yet, so we are not feeling the full blast of practicum.
however, i heard that many of them are starting 2 weeks later or so!
why!
):
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the p2s are seriously cute.
(shishi! this should answer your question!)
((((:
teehee.
(shishi! the boys are not the only cute ones!)
-
school's so good, so far.
nothing much yet, so we are not feeling the full blast of practicum.
however, i heard that many of them are starting 2 weeks later or so!
why!
):
-
the p2s are seriously cute.
(shishi! this should answer your question!)
Sunday, February 21, 2010
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